When I think about you, your beautiful laugh & your contagious smile, I smile & remember how happy you always were. And then when I think about how you’re gone from this earth & ripped away from all of us, I get this lump in my throat & I feel like I can’t breathe & I just want to scream. People say that time is what we need -that we need to learn to go on & we will get past this together but I know that’s not true. I know that’s not true because a piece of me is gone. A piece of all of us is gone. And you’ve taken those pieces with you. You had your life stolen & that’s not something we will ever move on from. You were so bright, and I know that you at times thought you were dark, you weren’t, you never were- not even the slightest bit. We all have our own personal struggles & battles to overcome. But that never stopped you from being the most positive and the most eager to get out of the house and go do anything to have a good time and some laughs. You had the biggest heart. You were so caring. So generous. So compassionate. There’s not enough people like you Junior. There just isn’t. You’d literally give the shirt off your back if it were needed. You’d give what you had & share what you could. That was always the kind of person that you were. Even when we were kids and it was the six of us. You were always looking out for us, cooking for us, doing what you could just to make sure that life ran smoother. I’ll never forget but when I was 14, I thought I knew everything. I had life figured out and nobody could tell me anything. I was busy being a pain in the a** to everyone around me and I started to feel like nobody wanted me around. Except you. You would pick me up & let me stay with you & Mariel for days at a time because it was important to you that I knew someone still cared. I’ll never forget that June. It’s just not fair you’re gone. God really does only take the best, I only wish he would’ve let us have you for longer than the 30 years he gave us. I wish that you had the chance to teach little Ray so much more. I wish you could watch him grow & learn to take after your passions. I promise to make sure little Ray always knows how much you loved him & remind him all of the time of the great man you were. I just can’t say it enough times, it’s just not fair you’re gone. I can’t wrap my mind around it. I would give anything to bring you back – to have another conversation, to go to the beach again, to cook together, to play monopoly at the table on Canburry, to take our kids to the park or to trick or treat, to dance to rebelution like retards in your room again. I’d give anything to have just another memory with you. I miss you so much Junior. Until I see you again some day, I’ll be here remembering you & missing you. I love you June.